Fixing My Past Actions

     Determination means that you continue to try to achieve something. But I’m the total opposite. If I start something, I’ll probably get through more than half of it and I think “This is so easy, I’m going to finish this in no time.” And yet, I come up to a problem – I don’t get what this question is saying or how to answer it and even what the answer is. I try so many ways that I think will work, but they’re not even close. At this point, I just literally give up. Until now, I’ve been doing the same thing and its kind of like a routine. I can see evidence that my grades have changed since the time this bad habit has started. To stop my grades from changing, I wish to change this habit. In order to get rid of this bad habit, I plan to ask the teacher about any questions I have about the homework and ask for a little help if I have a confusion.

     Being able to overcome fear by speaking their mind is assertiveness. I can overcome my fear, but I can’t by influencing others. This reason for this could be because I’m very shy even if it doesn’t seem like it. But, another factor for this is because I doubt myself many times. This doubt starts to form when I have a feeling like “How are these people going to think of me as? Am I doing something wrong? Am I wrong?” When all these feelings pop into my mind, I just start to freak out. I show this same attitude in class because I think “Am I saying the wrong answer?” If you see me not participate in class, then this is probably the reason why. But because of this, my grades are again changing but not as much. This might change if I start to think to myself that “No one is wrong because everyone has different opinions. Just speak your heart out. This is what you think, not others.” I will definitely try this out for the better of me and my grades.

     For example, if I have a homework assignment due tomorrow, my usual mentality is that it’s not due today and I’ll have time to do it in the morning at school. But, this is where the problem goes wrong. Because of this mentality, the fire begins to largen. The procrastination starts from the moment I wake up the next day, thinking “When am I going to finish this assignment? Will I have time to complete it?” If I just did the homework the day it was assigned, then I wouldn’t have to worry so much. But again, I didn’t. On and on, this process goes on every once in a while, and yet I keep making the same mistake. If this doesn’t stop, I’ll never know where I’ll end up. There has to be an end to this or my grades could be a disaster. I’m lucky they aren’t yet, so I should take my chance now to fix my bad habits. An easier way to stop this process is just to simply at least start the homework the day it was assigned, and I’d be finished. Then, there would be nothing to worry about later on.